A Split Second…

It only takes a split second… that’s it.  Everything can change in just the same amount of time that it takes for you to blink your eyes.  Think about it.  Think about the times in your life when something happened or something that was said changed your path forever. Your first love telling you “I’ve met someone else” or “Maybe we should see other people”.  It only took a second to say the words but it changed you.  It changed your heart an your mind.  Later on in life you may have heard “Will you marry me” and you said “yes”, and all in the matter of seconds.

Maybe it was something wonderful like “You’re expecting”… or “its a girl/boy”.  or how about even “it’s twins”.  I myself have been blessed twice hearing “You’re pregnant” and once hearing “It’s a boy” then “it’s a girl”.  Sometimes in a split second life can change in ways you never really expected, and was better then you ever dreamed.  Those are the moments that we all hold onto to get us through those other moments that change things for the worse.

Maybe, sadly someone in your life or even maybe yourself heard a word that forever changed you.  Cancer.  I’ve heard that word in my life to many times.  I’ve lost 3 people I loved dearly to cancer, one just last week and I currently have one person fighting since 2008 to beat it.

Maybe the phone rang one day..and the voice on the other end was letting you know there had been an accident or someone you loved couldn’t handle life anymore and didn’t reach out for help.  That split second they made a choice that impacted your life forever.

We’ve all had split seconds in our lives that changed it and us forever.  We’ve all had split seconds in our lives where we have made decisions in split seconds that changed everyone else around us.  It only does take a split second….

I guess we all just have to remember that when things get really bad that it could all change in that split second… and when things are going good to cherish it, because that to can change in that same exact split second.

Some more completed Art work.. that are for sale BTW

I’ve been working on a few projects lately.  A friend wanted me to paint her an angel… and omg.. AACCKKK.. I can’t paint people… so I’ve spent over a week drawing and painting and practicing angels.  1908219_10152596958420870_4790740801240071620_n 10404189_10152599519690870_6618460671384954130_n3.19.15 10930168_10152597036090870_2039118690210753349_n angel 03.11.15

 

These are just a few of my attempts… but the time came to put it on canvas.  This is how it ended up looking when I finished it today.

 

Going home 03.20.15I’ve titled this one, going home.  I worked really hard on this one.. and I hope she truly loves it and isn’t just being nice because she’s my friend…

Yesterday a lady I considered a second mother growing up lost her battle to cancer.  I painted this one this morning for her.. it’s titled Saying Goodbye..

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The only other two I don’t think I’ve posted here are..

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You only miss them when they’re gone…

A few years back I started having these pains in my left shoulder.  They just continued to get worse and worse and after almost 2 years I was finally diagnosed with frozen shoulder.  It’s a horrible thing to live through and I don’t wish it on anyone.  Since the start of this journey I have lost more then 50% of the mobility of my arm.  Here is a link to see what it is http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/frozen-shoulder/basics/definition/con-20022510.  Now this link will tell you that it usually only lasts 1-3 years, but that’s not true in my case.  Of course since I’ve been diagnosed it’s also been figured out that I have a bulging disc in my neck and I have Ulnar nerve damage.

Anyways this posts really isn’t about the actual “Frozen Shoulder”, but more a list of things I miss the most about not having 2 fully functioning arms.  Everyone loves lists, right?

So in no definitive order… here it is..

5)  Being able to do my hair!  Do you know how hard it is to curl or straighten your hair when you can’t get one of you’re hands up to the top of your head!  I seriously have to tilt my head over to the side to try to reach my hair!  It’s quite the site actually.

4) Being able to pick anything up with it.  Seriously, there have been times I can’t even pick up simple things, like a stapler!  I have lost pretty much all muscle in this arm.  I feel like an old lady.

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yeah, this is how my arm feels with any weight in my hand.

3) Being able to scratch my back!  Yeah, it’s not happening.  Now I have the claw…

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2) Kinky sex.  Yeah I went there.  You can’t get freaky if you can’t not only use your arm but it’s severe pain if you move it in the wrong direction.  No 50 shades of grey for me.. :-(

1)  Putting my bra on the right way.  Just slide it on, reach behind and hook it.  And to take it off you just reach back and unhook and slide it off.. but I can’t do that!  No… alas.. I have to do the hook and twist.  It’s a pain in the ass.

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Oh how I wish I could still this!

 

Before anyone suggests it.. I do have front clasps bra’s.. but they are all T Backs.. sometimes you need a bra that doesn’t have a sporty T Back.. ya know what I mean?  LOL

Weekend Paintings

I’ve been a very busy painter this weekend.. :-)  Here are my latest..

Renee's Spooky Nightmare Before Xmas Swing 03.08.15

This one was requested for a birthday gift, so it’s sold.  :-)

Pink Flower 03.08.15

This one was actually something else that I hated!  I didn’t want to lose the canvas so I scrubbed it clean and started over.  I’m impressed with it.  :-)  It’s for sale.. BTW.. they are all for sale.

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This one is an oil painting.. man I hate painting with oil paints.  I love the colors and depth.. but they are a pain in the but to clean up!!

03.07.14 Purple love

This one is titled Purple Storm..  I mixed the colors myself on it.  Yeah.. I’m impressed with myself.

 

GASP… How dare I show a woman’s nipple/breast on Facebook!

So a couple of days ago I posted a story about a beautiful art project that was done by Jade Beall Titled “A Beautiful Body”.  It’s pictures of women who have had children and show’s their bodies in all their natural glory!  These pictures are beautiful and untouched and I posted the article because I completely stand behind what this artist is trying to do, and guess what Facebook did because I posted this?  THE BLOCKED FROM FACEBOOK FOR 24 HOURS BECAUSE OF THE NUDITY.  The pictures show women’s breast.. GASP.. how dare you display a woman’s breast or nipple in a public forum!

As someone who suffers greatly from Body Dysmorphic Disorder (http://www.adaa.org/understanding-anxiety/related-illnesses/other-related-conditions/body-dysmorphic-disorder-bdd) I am constantly comparing my body to every other woman I see and frankly, the images that the media puts out there makes this a set up for constant failure and hatred of myself even more.  This woman is out to “heal” the damage that has been done. Here are a few of the pictures that Jade displayed in this project.

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I think these images are pure beauty.  They show the world what most women look like.  They showed me that my tummy looks a lot like the women in this picture.  I loved this so much that I couldn’t wait to share it.  I didn’t realize that Mark Zuckerberg and his entire company are still in the dark ages where it’s completely immoral and poor taste to see a woman’s body.  Well, not body but nipples.  I mean seriously????  How many men post pictures of themselves shirtless in the summer time at the beach or pool side and frankly they have larger cup size boobs then I do!!!  Why is it fair that we are forced to see some fat ugly out shape hairy guy with size D moobs with nips and all but we can’t see a woman’s?  Is it because a woman can breast feed and because milk may come out of them it’s just to taboo?  Is it because they are considered sexual?  Or is it because these women don’t have perfect bodies with flat stomachs and no stretch marks and their boobs aren’t perky and saline filled?  I think that this is just ridiculous that in 2015 we are still having this battle.

So to Facebook I say FU!  Get over you’re 1950’s way of thinking.  THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT A WOMAN’S BODY THAT SHOULD BE VIEWED AS SHAMEFUL AND HAVE TO BE HIDDEN.

If you’d like to check out the entire art project click the link below.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/06/24/a-beautiful-body-book-project-jade-beall-photos_n_3467178.html