Session 3 went a little differently. We didn’t really discuss the previous session very much. You see I had had a very bad day that day and was in a bad mood. I was angry and irritated with life and wasn’t hiding it. So this day we had just discussed the day and the few previous days and what had happened to get me so annoyed. At the end of my session I gave her my list of core values that I had to write during the week leading up to my appointment. I’m sure we will be discussing these things during my session on Tuesday. Below is the list of core value’s that I wrote down. I a sadden to say that I truly believe these things to be true and I pray that one day I can change the way I think.
1) I am not meant to have peace.
2) It seems I am meant to fail, always.
3) I am strong.
4) I am scared of happiness.
5) 1 step forward, 2 steps back. Every time.
6) I survive everything, only because I have no other choice.
7) I am hard to love.
8) I will never be one of “those” girls.
My homework for this past 2 weeks is an ABC worksheet. A is to write about something that happened. B. is “tell myself something. C. is “I feel something” The example given is A. I build a porch and the railing comes loose. B. “I can never do anything right”. C. “I get angry and kick the railing. I also feel down and sad because I can’t do anything right”
Are my thoughts above in “B” realistic? “No. It wouldn’t hold up in a court of law, because I do SOME things right”.
What can you tell yourself on such occasions in the future? “There are soe things that I do all right. It is not true that I “never” do anything right”
I’m still working on this one… the dead line is almost here.