Today, 10 years ago I gave birth, via c-section, to the tiniest cutest little baby girl ever!! I can say that cause to me she was and still is. My delivery was scheduled and we took her 3 weeks early due to the massive amounts of stress that I was under throughout the pregnancy. When she was born she was a tiny little ball of pink attitude (which she still has..lol). Now I had been an insulin dependent diabetic through the entire pregnancy so when little Shelby was born her sugars kept bottoming out. They whisked her away to the NICU where she stayed for 3 days enjoying yummy bottles of sugar water instead of formula. When she finally got to come stay with me in my room I was so excited to finally be able to bond with her and enjoy that time a woman gets to breast feed her baby…. except Shelby wanted nothing to do with that! The lactating nurse came in to help me thinking maybe I was doing it wrong (even though I breast fed my son), but Shelby still wanted nothing to do with it. We tried everything, even rubbing a small amount of sugar water on my nipple to trick her into latching on.. but nope. Instead she would get so mad and cry so hard and then suddenly her little legs would shoot out straight and she’d fall off to sleep, just like that.. instantly. It was the funniest thing to watch and even the nurse said she’d never seen that before. So my little bundle of joy got formula (she wouldn’t even drink the breast milk pumped out into a bottle).
After 5 days in the hospital (my dr gave me 1 extra day for rest) I brought her to a chaotic home filled with stress, yet she shined through it all, smiled and cooed..she only cried when she was hungry or wet. She was always happy, especially if her mama was within eyesight. She was and still is truly a mama’s girl. I’ve often thought that my mom picked her out just for me, you see my mom died on 3/31/2000 and Shelby was conceived on 3/31/2002. My mom never had any granddaughters and I think she knew just how badly I needed this little girl in my life and sent her to me. She is and always will be the best Christmas gift I ever got.
She is an exact duplicate of me, from the looks to the personality to the attitude, only she’s better then I ever was. She’s athletic and smart and has so much self esteem, it literally pours out of her (something I never had). She’s turning into such a wonderful, kind hearted loving young lady.
I can’t imagine how I could ever be even more proud of her then I already am, but I’m sure she’ll continue to do things that make me even more proud of her! I love love love my Shelbykins… she’s my heart and soul.. she keeps me grounded and reminds me that my heart is capable of a love greater then ever thought possible.
I know that in just a blink of an eye, my princess will be grown and in her own life and with her own children. I pray that I am here on earth long enough to be there with her through all of the wonderful things that are coming her way.. and I pray she never forgets how much I love her. Shelby.. You are truly an amazing gift sent straight from Heaven. You are loved by many.. don’t ever change sugar bug.